Hi and thank you!
I ponder some things, been trying to figure out, just when I begin to feel and want to stay anchored in a certain vibration, it sometimes flips the other way hours later. Yesterday for ex, when getting up, felt a new vibration of this is what it feels to be empowered, stay strong on a decision, be driven and passionate and take action, be on fire, which is what I did, was going strong staying in the vibe, (I forgot to mention, while I was still in this fiery vibe of doing, I was practicing the piano and saw a swarm of dragonflies show up outside my patio, my piano is next to the patio so I have an outside view from where I'm seated. I looked it up and it basically meant change, metamorphosis, new beginnings. Also, months before when I would practice the piano a bird would suddenly show up and attach to my patio screen with its feet and be looking in. I live on 5th fl and the patio is screened in.) until hours later got drained and emotional pain welled up inside and couldn't shake it off the rest of the day. I don't understand this, and is it coming from me and or someone/something external? As it's happened a lot, same with manifestation, sometimes it goes in the opposite direction, even though I'm thinking my underlining energy was doing fine.
Have I been doing things correctly for my desired path to open up to me, or is there anything else waiting on me to change first? I feel I have been doing everything. But, I'm human and not a robot, there's only so much one can tolerate and not get frustrated.
Maybe I'm being tested to stay anchored and strong, but like after awhile I get upset and feel enough is enough already. Universe, have some pity on me already, lol! I'm not a kid age anymore and there is only so many years that we have on earth, I want to enjoy it with my desires, they are simple desires, and many people have it from my point of view. Update: been doing more thinking and perhaps what I'm currently experiencing is change happening around me seen or unseen. Let's see what the angels say :)
add: Just remembered something else, sorry I keep coming back, didn't want to overwhelm but things kind of all tie in. On the 6th Aug, actual Lion's gate u mentioned, near midnight my ear did something new for the first time. I always have a frequency I hear, and sometimes one will come in with a high or low pitch for a sec or two and I know something's going on, but this time, it was a quick series of several frequ notes playing, like was I receiving download codes? lol
The past couple hours been doing the thoughts about this to see what comes up, i was reminded, i must love the soul as is and not connect the metaphysical to it. Just love myself as the soul and nothing else, regardless of what I can do or look like, since that comes from ego/metaphys and not from soul. I have to stay in love and peace. Lead everything from soul, not mind.
I took what u said ystrday about go from heart first and then bring up to throat to speak, and i felt much better, i did that last night during my lesson and it felt more relaxed and loving, felt a big dfrnce.
Though I was cryg like crazy last night bc all this shockd me as I was actually over the years felt the opp, like i was too good for the planet's ways and wanted a better place, safe planet and loyal people, and not animal eatg animal, or duality struggles etc.
What I also came up with is the same thing again from the other day, that my yes should be really deep energetically, coming from my soul. Not a surface yes. Though, even though I felt my yeses were, I need to seriously go deeper and ground the yes with my assurance, to be aligned.
I had a video pop up I listened to that was steering me to think that way too last night n this mrng. Also, aftr I read ur msg, my video feed sent me an alert for a reiki shorts vid of clearing throat and heart chakra. Synchronicities. Yea, it's also strange bc I thought things were cleared already before when doing clearings in the past. Ay ya ya